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I don't know why, but I've been feeling the urge to not only coan size my crap, but clean as well. And I don't just mean the monotonous day to day cleaning of laundry and dishes, but the more deep stuff - like cleaning out the cat hair that accumulates between the carpet and baseboard. (So much cat hair, so much back discomfort, repeat ad nauseum)

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I've been playing with some old Rit dye I've had for years. Easiest way to get rid of it, right? Well not really because now I want to play even more, which might involve buying more dye if I'm not careful. I'm currently distracted into wanting to try the shibori technique, abd I certainly have plenty of white cotton fabric to play with...

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I may have gotten past the issues I was having with my current knitting project - I actually watched a beginning knitting video on YouTube, and downgraded my casting on method to a much simpler method than what I was using, and made myself loosen my yarn tension. But npw my right radial nerve won't play nice. Within the first 10 stitches it starts tingling, and if I try to keep doing it only takes a couple more stitches to make my thumb and forefinger go completely numb. RAR. I've been trying to address the issue on my own with nerve stretches, glides, and being more mindful of my natural slouch, but I keep wondering if it would calm down faster if I had another visit with a Physical Therapist. Cuz it doesn't just happen while knitting, but at it's worst it'll happen at night and it does wake me up until I roll over onto my left side and the pain goes away. Yay for growing up in a battle zone where one is afraid to relax...

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And the wind has been howling att day because of another cold front coming down. It may only be in the 50s, but the gusts maje it feel much much colder than that. I miss the days ofcold but beautiful weather...
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We had a cold front blow in yesterday morning. It only put us down into the low 50s, but the wind - omg that damn North wind! - clocked in at a sustained 12-29 mph, so it actually feels almost 20 degrees colder.

But the first 2 days of winter are predicted to be back up in the 70s. *sigh&

Staying in the 50s would really be nice, as long as someone turns off that damned wind machine.

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The past several months have seen me doing a bit more downsizing than usual. Along with the deep fabric stash dive I did during NoNEWSew, I've made a noticeable dent in my books. This is a bigger deal than it looks simply typed out on a screen. For me, anyway. I have books I've never read, but bought when the opportunity presented itself in hopes of one day reading them, and seeing them again reminds me of that. So I stop and go looking to see if there's an ebook version on Kindle or Overdrive (the library's ebook service), and if there is, it goes on a wislist and the print version goes. Bit a few aren't currently available, or maybe I haven't dug deep enough yet, so they stay.

Himself does NOT "get it". He does not see the appeal of books. To him, they're boring and should all just Go Away.

But he doesn't bring it up - probably because there are interests he has that I could bring up in "retaliation" that I feel the exact same way abou - guns and ammo being top of the list. Yeah, I just don't see the appeal there.

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I finally upgraded my Holiday wreath! Years ago, back in the dark days of marriage, my then husband and I bought an undecorated wreath at spme craft store in the hopes we'd decorate it together. Well, we put one thing on it, and then he was traveling so much for work that he never had time, and I didn't want to do it myself. Mainly because I knew he's whine about how I did it without him, and that was "mean".

He didn't take it with him when he left, and for a few years I would come across it, remember the "story" that went with it, and toss it asid. But then, at some point, the topic came up with Himself. I was thinking of getting rid of it and getting a completely different one, but he encouraged me to keep it and do what *I* wanted with it.

This past weekend, I finally took some gold tinsel garland and wrapped it several times around it. Still thinking it could use something more, but I no longer look at it and think "that's a pathetic excuse for a wreath". So YAY MW!
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Took another bag of stuff to the charity thrift store I donate to, then came home and wanted to cry about how small the dent made was. I've been working on downsizing my clutter for literally years, and I just don't feel like it's making an impact. I STILL have more stuff than I want to have.

Five and a half years on Dialysis gave me lot of time to Think - about what I'd done with my life, and what I wanted to do differently if I ever got that Transplant. I realized that I had spent my time and money on Stuff, instead of Experiences, and I wasn't happy about that. I realized my Stuff even limited me to an extent. I couldn't save money on rent by moving to a smaller, less expensive apartment. I realized even moving costs would be more because of how much I owned.I realized I even had ti spend more time cleaning, since I had to 'pre-clean' first - move the stuff off the surface I needed to clean so I could fully clean it.

No, I don't want my Obituary to read "She kept a clean house'. (Thank you to Ann Richards for that comment!)

So WHY am I having suck a hard time getting rid of all my Stuff???
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I finally moved my laptop off my sewing table yesterday night, so now I'm trying to figure out if I like it here. I dunno - it's foing to take some getting used to. Still not happy with the light shining DIRECTLY on the keyboard - but lighting is an easy fix.

We saw Tomb Raider on Saturday. My how the times have changed since Angelina Jolie's version - no undercurrent of sexual tension between Lara and every single man she met! Yeah, I know Tomb Raider was originally a Computer Game, and had a large following of Gamer Boiz with their inadequate social skills who'd probably never interacted with a real woman anywhere close to Jolie's 'charms', but still...nice to see a movie with a woman in the lead where it isn't constantly reminding you she's a potential bed mate. She's competent, capable, and definitely more than eye candy, and the men know it and behave accordingly.

(Sitting on this side of the room really makes it obvious to me just how much work I still need to do to turn this room into a real WORK room instead of just my 'jink' room. Seriously overwhelming.GAH!)
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I'm hungry, but can't eat dinner for another few minutes because my Progrf med has to be taken on an empty stomach an hour before I can eat dinner. Blergh.

Thanksgiving weekend was beautiful, if about 10 degrees too warm. Ick. That's something I won't miss when I do finally leave Texas. It's just too gorram hot for me, and it's only getting worse as time goes by.

I just hope I can get a lot more decluttering done before I go. The STUFF limits me - and it makes it far more expensive to maintain. I was captivated by the Minimalist Movement for a couple months this past summer, but I've gotten over that. Yes, the idea of 'less stuff' sounds great, but not to the lengths some people take it. I WILL NOT give up toilet paper or underwear. That thought is just ridiculous for hygiene reasons. I just was never an extremist, and that is certainly extreme. So - decluttering, yes. Conscious Spending, yes. Sepending more on experiences than stuff, absolutely. But give up things I use to stay and keep clean?? Oh HELL no!!

The main probelm I'm having now is that I've reached the point where I've gotten rid of all the 'easy' stuff. I'm now at the point where it's getting more difficult to decide to let go. I'm not willing to declutter my 'fantasy life', because I know that in order to HAVE my 'fantasy' life, I have to BE and DO the things I see in my fantasies. And that is only more difficult if I get rid of the accessories to reach that life. I know it's as simple as DOING what you want to do in your fantasy. So that's my main stumbling block on downsizing. Annoying.

But first - the silly food thing.

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