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Rough Week
Jun. 10th, 2017 12:04 amIt's been something of a rough week this week. A couple of people were just being rude jerks for no known reason/. Really made me feel like crawling into bed and hiding under the covers with the cats until everyone went away.
Had a small speed bump at the beginning of today, but then a nice string of griendly, dupportuve, nice smiling people to make it a good day. Top it all off with a surprise phone call from a friend with an invite to do something Sunday, and it's a good evening. I really needed that.
I haven't been very creative in a long while. This has been a naaging pull on my well being. But a part if me feels like I'm not allowed to do something messy like be creative til I get my living space under better control. I'm not sure where that thresholld is, or even if one exists. It's almost as if I'm not 'allowed' to play til I finish my chores, but I don't know exactly what my chores are. All I know is I feel like I haven't done ENOUGH.
I always feel inadequate. But I have no clue how to feel 'adequate'.
Had a small speed bump at the beginning of today, but then a nice string of griendly, dupportuve, nice smiling people to make it a good day. Top it all off with a surprise phone call from a friend with an invite to do something Sunday, and it's a good evening. I really needed that.
I haven't been very creative in a long while. This has been a naaging pull on my well being. But a part if me feels like I'm not allowed to do something messy like be creative til I get my living space under better control. I'm not sure where that thresholld is, or even if one exists. It's almost as if I'm not 'allowed' to play til I finish my chores, but I don't know exactly what my chores are. All I know is I feel like I haven't done ENOUGH.
I always feel inadequate. But I have no clue how to feel 'adequate'.
